It's the end-of-posting Exam week D:

OMG, OMG, OMG!!!
Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarggghhhhhhhhh

I can't believe it's the exam week already. I don't really know if i've learned anything much. 2 weeks for endocrinology, 2 weeks for CNS, and 4 weeks for Cardiology, is it enough? Honestly, i dont think so. (or is it just me??) My group has to cover respiratory, ID, dermatology and rheumatology posting by ourselves. Is it enough? No! And this is the first time we are going to have short cases but they gave us 2 short cases for the exam. Is it alright? No!
How can this be alright? But, nevertheless i dont want to be stressed out by the exam. I'm just going to give my best shot as always ( and it's not the best result usually)
Today, 1 friend told me that when she came into my room she always found me holding a book in my hand implying i'm a hardworking girl and always study. And my response was, what? No, lah..sometimes i look at my laptop, sometimes i dont read the book in my hand at all and i said it was not a good way to study (am i in denial?)
Seriously, i think being hardworking and study most of the time in clinical years is NOT a good way to study. (and yet i'm doing it) The cases you might get in exam, they wont be taken from your books. It's how you apply the knowledge that matters (at least, that's the way i see it). So, a better option is to have some friends to study with you about cases in the hospital. I think it's better to learn that way because by doing so you'll know some of the important aspects of the hx that you'd missed out, the correct way to perform PE (if you do it wrongly), to interpret the findings if it tally with your hx, to think about the relevant investigations and the results that you'd expect and finally how to manage the patient.
But my problem right now is finding someone to study together (medical students tend to study alone) and to think about differetial dx and ix.
How can I overcome this?

2nd week into Cardiology

Next week's gonna be exhausting, REALLY! There'll be seminar, case discussion and multidisciplinary seminar of which i'm involved. Some of the slides are still unfinished. Well, it's a groupwork and i think it's much better if my group can sit together and finish it off in one go (it'll be easier to ask for their opinion etc) Since we have to include a case example, i think 2 brains are better than 1 isn't it? I really don't want to be bothered by this since there's no use for me to think about it alone (it's a groupwork remember?) And not to mention the case summaries..yes, the never ending case summaries! If i think about all of them, i'll be stressed..hence, the purpose of going back home.

I don't know what's going to happen. Exam's are coming in 3 weeks time. I dont think i'm prepared.
I hope i can find a sparing partner, just like how my seniors did. For me, it's much easier to study together than studying alone because you know, there are times that you feel so down, unmotivated to study and this where the sparing partner come in.

Hoping to find one soon~